Pretty Little Thoughts

I know, I know we are living in a digital age and the screens of our gadgets are the only stage we are heading with.  But, I miss stage, I miss performing on stage! Whenever I am on a stage to greet the wedding couple or for some other event, there is a sudden urge inside my heart to ask everybody to get down the stage and let me perform! I want to perform!  People ask me why don't I make reels or YouTube videos then. Well it is because I want to dance, sing, recite poetry, or tell a story in front of  a real audience! Not to a mobile screen! I miss how my mom used to tell me to use the complete stage and make eye contact with the audience whenever I was getting ready for a performance! She told me this will make you confident! And yes, it did. During my pre-school I missed my first performance on stage only because of my stage fear. But when my brother went on stage to mimic Charlie Chaplin, and oh my god the applaud he received, I realized I want to be on the stage too....

Sometimes, all I imagine is What if? What if I lived the way I wanted to live and not according to what others expect of me? What if I never have to shut my mouth up just because I am a girl? What if this world was not patriarchal? What if I was loved by everyone for my raw version and not the one they made out of me? What if there were no religious or racial discriminations? Humans have not spared even the colors and food! I have heard this like we don't eat this because we are Hindu! we don't wear this color because we are Hindu! oh goD! like really? are you even a human first? What if humans knew how to appreciate the efforts instead of always blaming and criticizing others? What if there were no rapes at all? Oh! a safe world to live freely!!! What if ? Oh! there are endless what ifs going through my mind since I started understanding things around me! What if there was a training to be a good human? No, don't tell me religious books help! Humans have used their shitty ...

Sometimes you feel stuck.. Stuck in life, Stuck in mind, Stuck in a phase, Stuck in a routine! and no matter how hard you try, you are unable to move. Well there can be a thousand reasons for you being stuck, But trust me nothing or nobody can help you with this, except YOU! force yourself to try one more everyday! Take a baby step everyday to correct just one thing that you feel is incorrect in your life! Keep your things in order for one if they are not in order! Talk to a friend if you haven't in a while! Start making bed as the first you get up! Just do whatever you feel like doing, but just don't stop!! these baby steps, these small habits, will take you a long way ahead without even knowing!!!