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Scared of losing myself!

The thing I am scared of losing the most is me! I know, I know the first reaction of anyone reading this or hearing this would be that I am crazy and how can someone lose herself? But we can lose ourselves,  Sometimes partially, sometimes completely. The thought of losing myself scares me the most  Because n othing for me is partial!  Well, this is a side effect of being an extremist!  I live in extremes. There is no gray! It is either black or white!  It is either with me or without me! We often lose ourselves in loving others!  Here, "the other" can refer to family, friends, or even the love of your life! We love so intensely that we offer ourselves completely,  Or, I should say we try to win the other person by giving everything we have! But does it work?  No! It does not work at all! And instead of winning their love or attention or even some space in their thoughts, We end up losing ourselves! We are so busy proving our love to them that we f...

A loop of toxic traits!

A child's mind is like plain paper, whatever he sees around gets imprinted and actually makes his or her personality! But, now when I look back, we are taught these toxic traits since childhood! And I am not quite sure why?  Since childhood, We are taught toxic traits like racism, castism, finding all the negative things in a person, never acknowledging the good people do to us, eavesdropping, never accepting your mistake, always trying to find someone to blame our mistakes on, not being a good listener, always being afraid of losing a relationship just because we did one thing we wanted, and sexism!  I know we are not taught these things in school, and neither our parents make us sit and teach all of this stuff! But, a baby's mind is active since its conception. Even if a fetus is in the womb, the stress or happy hormones of his mother affect him equally. There are many things that we say "ye to pet se hi sikh ke aaya hai" ("he learned this in the womb only...